Looking back...I must have been crazy!

Looking back... I must have been crazy.
Who was I to dream?
Who was I to think the pastor was speaking directly to me?
Who was I to jump in a car at the thick of night and make my way down to South Beach for the next 4 hours; on little to no sleep, merely on faith alone, no connections, no friends, no appointments or meetings. Are you crazy? You must be! Wait...I must be!

Who was I to think that I could earn a masters degree? Does anyone in your family have a masters? Did someone tell you that you were capable of learning to a higher degree? Or learning period. Did someone inform you that you could live life to a higher standard or demand higher education from you? Did someone impart wisdom in your life; suggesting that by some miracle you were just as smart as the other kids? If so...boy please! Give me a break. Wait...Wait...Wait... this must be the sick joke we're looking for! I mean...I'm looking for.

Who was I to think that I could be the only Walk-On Athlete to perform in front of 32 NFL Scouts for the 2010 LSU Pro Day? Pahahahahaahhhaahahaahh
This is the one I just can't get over! I get it...its all a dream. You didn't actually do this right. That is about as real as me suggesting that Obama and I have the same pair of socks in my top drawer! LMAO :)

Ohhh, this next one is pretty good too!

Who was I to think that I could leave a small town like Killeen, Texas... KILLEEN, TEXAS! Where kids grow up thinking they'll never go to a big school! (whatever big means.) Where the town is considered a black hole. (meaning if you don't leave after high school, you'll never leave!) Where the youthful rap circles at lunch and in the middle of the hallways tend to be the feeding grounds where youth aspire to become rappers and artist... (Oh! Our childlike desires.)
Note: some actually do!
Oh, and where kids grow up actually wishing upon a star that their athletic gifts will propel them to become some big shot NFL star! (mind you... 5-10 out of every 10,000 kids do get a shot every 4 years or so.) The latest kids to get a Billboard in our area are RGIII & Colt McCoy.

But forget that...who was I to think that I had the mental capacity to pass my SAT and ACT and go on to attend a school that was 7 hours away from the only home I've really come to know? You're telling me that some little, black, military kid whose a bit country at heart thought he could hang with a bunch of young scholars who were raised, trained and sometimes forced to achieve greatness at such a large Division I institution? Bahahahaah! Please stop, this is way too much! Are you sure? A nationally accredited University? Get out of here!

Who was I to think that I could of all things...walk-on to a National Power House of a football team in the 2007 National Championship LSU Tigers?
Are you sick? You must be ill! Once again...this must be some kind of sick joke! I'm done with this. I'm done questioning myself...

The truth is... until we see ourselves among the good, among the elite, among the greats, we'll never achieve such a thing. I'm a visionary. The Bigger the Dream...the better! So dream! Dream the wildest of dreams. Chase the craziest of them all and when you make it...take a moment to realize just how far you've come.

Thank the people who helped you get there. Remember the words that encouraged you along the way. Remember the doubters that fueled you as cried yourself to sleep.
Rejoice at the doors that slammed shut in your face and over the relationships that ended! You are far better because of it all. You are far far far better because of it all.

Thank your lord and savior! Thank  your support systems.

Momma I love you.
Dad I know I've made you proud!
Sis, I'm glad to be your brother!

To everyone else...we laughed, we cried, we talked it out and hugged it out...but without all of you, I wouldn't be me! So from my heart to yours...THANK GOODNESS FOR YOU. THANK GOODNESS FOR YOU ALL!

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